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(no subject) [Jun. 15th, 2005|03:13 am]
[How Am I Feeling |curiouscurious]
[Musique |Emotion - Destiny's Child]

I need to go on a fast... I haven't been on one in quite a while... I guess I haven't got the strength. You know... all this shit is stressing me out way too much. I actually miss it... having that empty feelings.

............. bye.
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(no subject) [Jun. 8th, 2005|07:06 pm]
So's... I went to the library today.. and got Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix... as soon as I'm off the computer... I'm getting started on that book... 870 pages... shouldn't take me anymore than a week...

okay.. gotta go.. buh bye

EdIt: 1:48 AM

I've been readin the book since 7:30... it's good so far...

I'm on like... page 150... i don't know... some where around there... I haven't gotten very far... but it's something, right?

I'm sure I'll be on 300 by sometime tomorrow...

buh bye

EnD EdIt: 1:50 AM
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(no subject) [Jun. 7th, 2005|01:14 am]
I finished Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire at 4:40 AM this morning lol... I didn't want to stop...

It only took me 4-5 days to read it... I don't remember when I started it. A great book, if I do say so myself. I went to the library to get the Order of the Phoenix... not-so-surprisingly... they didn't have it, and they will call my house when someone has returned a copy. I know I'll have that one finished by July 16th... for those who don't know... that's when the 6th installment of Harry Potter is released... **sigh**

Rupert Grint is one hot mother fucker... I can't wait until Novemeber ::jumps for joy::


just updating... buh-bye
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(no subject) [May. 31st, 2005|06:04 pm]
I'm sick of this shit... why can't I just stop eating??? I eat when I'm not even hungry... there's something seriously wrong with that...

no more food.
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(no subject) [May. 30th, 2005|01:31 pm]
[Musique |Diamonds - Kanye West]

My stomach has been looking extra small the past few days, even tho I've been maintaing a weight of 139/140... it even looks better than when I was 135... **clap**


All I've had today was half a bagel
half a glass of milk
and a glass of water

I'm not planning on eating anything else today.. but it could just happen

Anyway... I have to get off darlings... I'll try to update later on.. muah!!
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(no subject) [May. 27th, 2005|12:49 pm]
[How Am I Feeling |tiredtired]
[Musique |You and I Both - Jason Mraz]

So... I woke up about 10-15 min. ago... and I tried eating an apple.. but there was just something about it... so I threw it away. And I haven't eaten anything yet. I'm really hungry, but I don't want to eat anything full of calories or fat and all that jazz... hmmm....

Self - Control Self-Control Self - Control Self-Control
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(no subject) [May. 26th, 2005|11:35 pm]
Today was a very emotional day for me... it was the last day of middle school... and I cried alot. Because Im never going to see half the people that went to Madison. And I'm just going to miss them so much. I've known most of them for 3 years... and now... we're all going to be separated. It really sucks... middle school went by super fast... I really hope highschool isn't the same.

So... at 12 I start this whole new diet/thing... whatever you want to call it... I don't know if I'm taking it too seriously... I've eaten like a pig all day... but I seriously want to lose alot of weight within the next two months....

Stay Strong and Think Thin... I love you all!
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(no subject) [May. 24th, 2005|10:30 pm]
Fat Piece of Lard

Diet/Crash Diet/Fasting/Starving/Restricting... whatever you want to fucking call it..!!!

okay well... im going to lose 10-15 pounds of the summer... and im going to do it by one of the methods right up there ^^^^^

It's going to start on May 27th... the day after school is let out, and end when school starts again... i need to look good for highschool!! and im so fucking fat!!!!
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(no subject) [May. 19th, 2005|07:45 am]
[Musique |Underneath It All - No Doubt]

I need/have to lose 10-15 pounds by August!! Not only for myself, but to show everyone how different I've become. I don't want to be the same as I am now. Highschool is a differnt place, with dramatic changes, and everything is just not the same as middle school. Bigger place, more people, more criticism. I know I'm going to hate it, but I think it will motivate me. But Jose and Jonathan are up in New York for the summer... and when Jonathan sees me I want him to think, "DAMN." lol... I hate the way I look, but everyone thinks I'm "fine". Or sexy, and they say all this shit, which I don't possibly see how... I mean, I'm so discustingly FAT and I'd give anything to be skinny. I just need to shed it all off before school starts up again.

I'm off to school in about 20 min.

Only 5 1/2 more days left... I'm going to cry on the last day.
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(no subject) [May. 19th, 2005|07:39 am]
[How Am I Feeling |thirstythirsty]
[Musique |Ohio Is For Lovers -]

So, I guess this so-called fast is going pretty well. I haven't eaten since 9:45 PM last night... but was tempted to eat a graham cracker this morning. But no... I had a few sips of my mom's coffee, and for lunch I think I might just have water. And about dinner... I just have to resist. It's all about control. And if I fail this, I know I have none. I'm just going to try and not think about it too much, or else I know I'll break.

Stay Strong, Ladie and Gentlemen!!

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