||[May. 19th, 2005|07:45 am]
|||||Underneath It All - No Doubt||]|
I need/have to lose 10-15 pounds by August!! Not only for myself, but to show everyone how different I've become. I don't want to be the same as I am now. Highschool is a differnt place, with dramatic changes, and everything is just not the same as middle school. Bigger place, more people, more criticism. I know I'm going to hate it, but I think it will motivate me. But Jose and Jonathan are up in New York for the summer... and when Jonathan sees me I want him to think, "DAMN." lol... I hate the way I look, but everyone thinks I'm "fine". Or sexy, and they say all this shit, which I don't possibly see how... I mean, I'm so discustingly FAT and I'd give anything to be skinny. I just need to shed it all off before school starts up again.
I'm off to school in about 20 min.
Only 5 1/2 more days left... I'm going to cry on the last day.