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:] ! [Dec. 2nd, 2006|09:28 pm]
[Current Location |Here.]
[How Am I Feeling |Haaappy!]
[Musique |Prison Sex - Tool<3.]

Well, well... well. :]
A lot has happened since I last posted.
My 10 month period of depression ended.
I have the most incredible boyfriend, a month tomorrow!

It's scary how happy I am.
I never thought I would be so happy in my entire life.
I have a good feelings about all of this.
Life is just so amazing right now.. I'm going to savor it.

Life is good, life is graaaand, life is amazing.
jasldkfjdslkj >.< :D, I'm a really happy person now.
It's relieving. I was so depressed, it's ridiculous.
I read back on old journal entries in my actual hand-written journals, and it's just like.. whoaa. Was I really THAT depressed and emo and self-loathing and pathetic?
I'm happy that's over. But it's good it happened.
I'm different now, I'm wiser, I'm intelligent in areas most people my age don't think about.
I have weird thoughts, and sometimes I can't control it and sometimes I think I'm crazy for thinking those thoughts, but I have my own ways of dealing with it. Tricking my mind ^.^

Anyway, I don't know when I'll update this again. It's been like, almost 5 months since I last had.
And I really don't believe how amazingly fast this past year has gone by..
Seriously. It's like, amazing. Time is weird. Everything is weird. But life is good. Whatever life is.

Goodbye :]<33!
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(no subject) [Sep. 17th, 2005|04:05 pm]
[How Am I Feeling |calmcalm]
[Musique |Blue and Yellow - The Used]

Hello Hello Hello.

I'm in Massachusetts now. I miss Florida very much.

Things are pretty good, though.
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(no subject) [Jul. 17th, 2005|07:04 pm]
As some of you may already know... I did fail the fast... but I made up to it today... I had very little to eat. I had a few bites of rice, chicken, and a potato.

I got my book yesterday at 11:30 am... and I finished it today... it was soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sad. I'm gonna read it again.
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(no subject) [Jul. 16th, 2005|12:10 pm]
I'm soooo happy! I've got my book! I got it at 11:30 because that's when I woke up... and started reading at 11:45.. it's rather interesting.

Hour 39 of my fast... but I have a feeling I'm going to give in... because my mom's making BaconBaconBacon!! Forgive me if I do.
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Past 24 Hours ||Woot Woot|| [Jul. 15th, 2005|09:17 pm]
[How Am I Feeling |blankblank]
[Musique |Calm Before The Storm - Fall Out Boy]

I'm extremely proud of myself... lol.. I've past the 24 hour mark... I suppose I can make it another day? Hopefully... but it was the easiest 24 hours of any fast I've ever had... it's so weird... because I have so much control this time. I want to keep it up; I need to keep it up.

Only 3 hours until HP & The Half-Blood Prince is released... I really hope mines is delivered on time... I really really really don't want anything to go wrong with the order... I've waited too long for this for something to backfire.

Alrighty... much love!

Stay Strong||Think Thin
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(no subject) [Jul. 15th, 2005|03:39 pm]
[How Am I Feeling |cheerfulcheerful]
[Musique |24 Hours - Alexz Johnson]

I'm happy!

Hour 18 Minutes 39 minutes since I started the fast... yaay... I didn't think I'd go this long... hrmm....

Mom's ordering pizza... uh-oh

Love Always

EDIT: 5:12 PM

Mmm... that pizza was good... lol, don't worry... I didn't eat any of it... and after each bite I took a sip of my drink as to replace the pizza... and it worked! and I'm not hungry anymore!! hardy har har... I'm so proud of me...

Can you believe that Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince is being released in 6 hours and 46 minutes!?!?!?!? WOWOWOWOWOW!! I'm too excited!

Alrighty... well, 20 hours and 13 minutes into this fast... peace.

Stay Strong||Think Thin

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(no subject) [Jul. 15th, 2005|03:10 am]
[How Am I Feeling |hungryhungry]
[Musique |On My Own - The Used]

Started my period yesterday... ugh.. but I'm 6 hours and 10 minutes into this fast... so far so good... just chewed up a piece of bread and spat it out... and then drank a big glass of water... but my tummy is rumbling... I wish I could just rip it out and make it stop... but I won't give in...

Love Always
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(no subject) [Jul. 14th, 2005|12:43 am]
[How Am I Feeling |drainedmiserable, fat, lonely, ...]
[Musique |Jesus of Suburbia - Green Day]

Hello... once again...

Well, I'm moving back to MA after three lovely years here in the Sunshine State... ::sigh::

And I must lose weight... because I haven't seen some of the people up there for 3 years!! And they are going to think I've become a fat cow... grrr...

Please please please please help me... I'm down to my last straw... I just can't seem to stay on a fast... no matter what I do! It's horrible... but I've been doing better the past few days... I think... I'm not sure...

I'm not sure of anything anymore...

but I guess I started a fast at 12 AM today... please... wish me luck... I need as much of it as I can possibly get... I love all of you very much! And thanks for supporting me!!
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(no subject) [Jul. 1st, 2005|06:28 pm]
Started a fast at 1:00 AM today... so far so good... but I don't want to jinx myself... I have a feelings I'm not going to succeed... but I was tempted to eat Chinese food... but nope... I had my back towards my mom and pretended I was eating rice, and then I took some chicken and closed the box and told her I'd eat more later, and walked out the room and took a bite of the chicken but then I went to the bathroom and chewed it and spat it out... and I did it with the rest that I had left... then I went back in the kitchen and my mom was like, "you don't want anymore rice?" and i said, "no, i'll eat later." and we were watching my neice and her friend on the trampoline and I grabbed another piece of chicken and bit it in front of her (so she knows that I was eating) and walked out the room and spat it out, too.

So ya... I'm about to go out right now... I have to buy a new straight iron... and I need to go to the library.

I'll be back later!

Stay Strong||Think Thin
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(no subject) [Jun. 15th, 2005|03:31 am]
Just started a fast... 3:30 AM... woo...

Well... I'll just make it 3 days... just to keep it short... wish me luck!!
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